So not sure if I have posted about this before but know for certain the idea or desire has been on our hearts for months (though with some distractions). Of course you know we are STILL trying to adopt “Flower” and of course she is priority in this adoption, but did you know that there is another little girl we met (now 13 yr old) while adopting Yana who has also been on our heart? Did you know that we also know adopting an unknown, younger, SN child (around the age of 4-6 yr old) has also been placed on our hearts?

 

In the spring of last year, before our adoption crashed, we stepped out in faith and prepared a second dossier along with the one meant for “Flower”. Of course at the time there were still registration issues with “Flower” but I believed God was telling me to step out in faith and update our documents, not only for her but for this other older child (I guess I should give her a name....umm, how ‘bout “Buttercup” lol).

 

Then things fell apart with “Flower’s” adoption and we didn’t feel like we could adopt from Ukraine without her, it just didn’t feel right. We also do not know “Buttercup” like we do “Flower”, so it was a lot different.  Then things started looking better for “Flower” and we began to just focus on her. Then fall came and we started to think about “Buttercup” again.

 

One day at the park with Anthony and Yana, we saw some little ones running around. Dan surprised me when he said something like, “We can adopt one of them too if you want?” He went on to say that he sees how I look at the little ones (I volunteer in the Children’s Ministry at church in the class with 3-5 yr old....LOVE IT!) and if we bring “Flower” and “Buttercup” home, we can adopt a little one....even at the same time!

 

Of course I eventually started looking at our circumstances (finances) and thought there is no way we can afford to adopt 3 at once....mayyyyyybe 2. So with that, I was back and forth on who would be number 2, “Buttercup” or this unknown child that my heart truly ached for. I don’t know that we ever came to a decision before our world was turned upside down with the looming Cancer diagnosis ahead. It didn’t take us long from there to decide we really just needed to focus on getting “Flower” home, anything else is just icing on the cake.

 

Well, time has passed and things have settled down. That ache in my heart to adopt a younger, SN child is back, and I also think about “Buttercup”. HOWEVER, looking at our circumstances, there is no way we can adopt 3 right now, adopting one will be a miracle. But why? Why this tug on my heart? Where does it come from? I truly believe it is God.

 

So while God has performed some pretty awesome miracles and blessings over the past year, I can’t help to think this is much bigger than He is willing to do. I know that it was long ago, while I was still just a child, that God put a desire in my heart for a large family (more specifically FIVE children). I guess we may seem to be a large family to some, but the oldest 2 don’t live here with us, so it is most often just Yana and Anthony at home. I also know that God sometimes puts things on our hearts that may take years and years to come to pass, but I’m praying that’s not the case.

 

If it is God’s desire for us to adopt 3 or even 2 during this adoption, He will need to be big and I do mean BIG. So tonight, I am trying not to just blow this off as the impossible but rather pray with all the faith in me, and more. How could that hurt, right?

 

I have no idea what God’s plan is but I hope it includes a lot of wonderful children, a big bus-like van and the finances to allow us to survive...and soon!

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Michelle! I had waited for so long to hear that everything was ok with you! Glad to hear that you are doing better! THREE - wow! You go girl! Follow where your heart leads you!
My hubby needs to hang out with yours! I am PLEADING for just ONE more! haha - and I am getting no where!
I hope that you can get your dossier submitted soon!

Amy

Follow your heart and what God is telling you to do. Maybe he is asking you to step out on faith and put your trust in Him when all else seems impossible. That is pretty much our story. We are adopting 3 with 3 already at home. We have a one income family and homeschool our kids. In today's world, that alone is enough for people to say your nuts! We live in an older home and have a no frills life, but we are happy. Glad to hear you are back on your feet!

God Bless -

Wow. You're amazing! You go, giril!! Raising SN kids is tough, but worth it. We FINALLY adopted 2 last summer. Both have PTSD, one CP and the other we're not sure...bipolar, autism, FASD, RAD...we'll see. He was supposed to be the "healthy" one.